lets be vain.
life kinda sucks
kay, havent rly been writing for quite some time.
in th midst of frigging mids, mugging my guts out.
& its only 29 more days before chi 'o's..
i think i shld stop bottling up all th bad stuff in my heart & suppressing all my feelings, cos i feel like i am getting more & more like a puppet w/o expressions. living a life trying to pretend to be happy isnt going to work out. cos it will just make me feel much more miserable inside.
i havent laugh like how i used to laugh in the past for a long time now. dere's so much stuff piled up, that even my heart, mind & soul cant take it.
insecurity; is smth which eats ppl's lives away. i cant stand the way tt i hv to live everyday with doubts & a sense of uncertainty. i guess only some ppl know how i feel. & th only way to be saved? is to pray.
you know how it is like, when sometimes, you feel tt God isnt with you, but, He is. it's just tt we are not giving our best to feel Him. & tt's one thing i am trying very hard to do. to FEEL HIM. to just feel his presence is one thing i wld be contented with. cos tt's when i know He is rly dere for me.
dere's one thing thers said tt struck me. we are created by God in His image. & if we are ever to feel broken, used or thrashy inside, the only person to fix us, is God. she said tt it may take a long time to heal. but, at the end of the day, when it does heal, we will just be a much better & reformed person than we used to be in the past.
for me, trusting in God to heal me, no matter how long it takes, is what matters to me th most now. concentrating on my studies & not those unneccessary things is what's important now.
Love God, Love Peace.
2:05 PM